From the bottom of the broken hearts

July 2006

She did not know what went wrong... She did notice that something was wrong... he was not the same guy... the guy who always came down the escalator when she was about to finish her shift... the guy who did not take his tea break just to walk her safely to the tram stop and wait for her tram to come. Something was indeed wrong... She had been crying for the past couple of days. And that Saturday, he finally told her that he had to go back to Taiwan. She did not know what to say. Part of her wanted to smack him and blame him to have somewhat suggested that he would never leave her. Knowing the reasons of him having to return, though, made her realise that it was not his fault and it was just as hard for him and that liked it or not she had to let him go.

They both cried together... He said it was hard... He said it was hard because he did not want to go back and he did not want to leave her. And he told her that no matter what she will always be an important part of her life. She told him that she needed time off but she wanted to remain friends with him. She walked out of his apartment, her second home for the past few months. As she was walking, the rain started pouring.. and she forgot her key last nite... To her shock, her housemate also forgot her key and she was outside as well... She was locked out -_- She walked to the real estate agent but of course it was closed because it was a Saturday... She called him because she did not know who else to call other than him. When he opened the door, he was shocked to see her soaking wet. He did offer her an umbrella before but she refused and lied to him that she brought an umbrella with her.

He made her some hot tea and some meal. And she started crying again when he did so. This was because she realised the feelings were still there. He was playing some songs by David Tao, songs that they both liked and had listened together. He then changed it to Mariah Carey. Which didn't help by the way, because the song was "Always be my baby" -_- In the end, her housemate phoned and told her that she had already called a locksmith and she could go back and enter her flat. So she went home and he watched her as she left and waited for the elevator like he always did.

August 2006

Time flies and she is still in love with him. He wanted to be her ball partner but her friends banned him from the ball because they wanted her to get over him. He called her before the ball and asked her to send the pictures to him because he wanted to see how she looked like. She did have some fun at the ball and a cute guy asked her for her number. However, she could only think of him and how much she missed him and how much she wished that he is right there with her.

September 2006

Guess what, she could not get over him... They still meet up and when they meet up they still act like a couple until now. She tried to keep herself busy with friends and assignments and work but still, she missed him.

October 2006

She turned 21 that month. She invited him for her birthday. It was kind of awkward as he was the only Taiwanese in the room and he did not really know her friends. But she took some pictures with him. After the party finished, she received a message on her way home. The message was from him. He said that she looked stunning and that he thanked her for inviting him. She had been happy for the past few days because everyone remembered her birthday and she got many surprises. She realised at that point that she missed him and it was always been him that she wanted to be with. So she cried again. And everyone told her that she should just forget about him as he is not going to stay anyway. But she could not...

November 2006

They argued big time... She doubted his feeling and she really wanted to give long distance relationship a shot... But he was not keen on the idea as both him and her had tried long distance before and both failed their past relationships. They did not speak to each other until one day she rang him... She realised that they did not have much time together as he is leaving at the end of November and she would be leaving a week before him to her home country for holidays. He told her that he could never be angry to her no matter what because he knew that she cared about him a lot. That night she went to a birthday party of former colleague. She was having so much fun... in fact she almost hooked up with another guy... But then he surprised her by showing up. She knows it was kind of bitchy but as soon as he showed up... she knew that she was a bit drunk and she realised that the one she really wanted to be with was him. He approached her and when he saw her with another guy, he went to another corner. She left the other guy and approached him. He told her that he missed her a lot and they hugged. The next few days, they went out together several times.

On the day before her last day, they went to the beach. At the end of the day, they were both sitting inside the car at her car park. She started crying and he felt really bad because he could not do anything. They promised each other that they would always be friends. As she walked up that stairs, he was looking at her through his car window... the way he always looked at her when she left his apartment and waited for the elevator.

December 2006

She was back in her hometown. She missed him a lot. She cried almost everyday. She tried to catch up with old friends and have fun. But she still miss him anyway. She prayed and hoped that he would hate Taiwan and come back.

January 2007

She was back from her holidays. She has not been feeling well for a while until that day... she fell ill and was hospitalised... on the second day at the hospital, her phone ring. It was him. He did not know that she was at the hospital. He told her that he was not happy in Taiwan. She was hoping that he would be back.

After she was out from the hospital, they spoke a few times online. She realised that he was not going back after all. She was sad but she realised that it is time to move on.

February 2007

There was this guy that she kind of liked and he asked her out for dinner. After shutting down herself for the past half year, she decided to go out. She went out with him several times and she realised that she liked him. He told her that he liked her and he wanted her to be his girlfriend. She told him she felt the same way. They got together and they are still together now.


To all the broken hearted people out there,

Sometimes life sux big time... you really like this person and the next thing you know, this person is taken away from you and you can't do anything about it. That sux. Some people take it well, some other people go to the extreme. When I was broken hearted, my friend told me this:

"Time will heal broken hearts. It is like a bitter pill that you shallow and for some weird reason, it slides really slowly down your throat. But it is the best cure for broken hearts"

And what he told me is true... Sometimes you just have to be patience and I know it's hard. I was angry when my friend told me this... Because I wanted to feel better NOW not later!!! But in the end, things turned out allrite for me. If things turned out allrite for me, it will turn out allrite for you too :) Hopefully this eases the pain that you're feeling rite now.

love,
Entep